Specifically, it seems, that time of year when I start getting very unhappy about stuff. I realize it's been more or less a constant thread for a while (this is okay--unfucking one's habitat is a process, and I am making progress), but it feels more acute now than it did, say, a few weeks ago.
*cue the "oh my god, books, why do I have so many books, argh argh argh flail" screed. Am sure many of you can fill it in from context and past experience*
I am coming to think that one of the absolute best things about Farthing party was the lack of a dealer's room.
I'm trying to catch up, and clean up (which is interesting with the occasional dermatographia flare-up, I will just say), and carry on. Please be patient.
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
*cue the "oh my god, books, why do I have so many books, argh argh argh flail" screed. Am sure many of you can fill it in from context and past experience*
I am coming to think that one of the absolute best things about Farthing party was the lack of a dealer's room.
I'm trying to catch up, and clean up (which is interesting with the occasional dermatographia flare-up, I will just say), and carry on. Please be patient.
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
- Current Mood:
busy
Dear brain,
If you are going to give me nightmares about needing to escape a city that has been invaded by aliens that turn people into horrible monsters, could you leave out the bit where I make my mother cry? For an hour? Because that was really upsetting.
No love,
Me
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
If you are going to give me nightmares about needing to escape a city that has been invaded by aliens that turn people into horrible monsters, could you leave out the bit where I make my mother cry? For an hour? Because that was really upsetting.
No love,
Me
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
- Current Mood:
drained
Today's been... odd. Not very odd, just a kind of one-degree-dislocated bit-off-kilter odd. I feel like I'm fuzzy on details, misunderstanding things. Tiny things, like "Oh! I thought you wanted to go out at noon, I didn't even consider the possibility that a bit after noon would be okay and it didn't occur to me to ask, yes in that case I would love to watch TV and get ready after and go with you." Not a big deal, just... drips of molasses in the gears.
I spoke to mom today, and she sounded a bit down. So I called her back and she sounded a little better, and then I called her again just a little while ago, and she sounded better but I keep hearing a dip at the end of the conversation and worrying she wants to cry.
I am telling myself that (1) she is allowed to have off days too, especially when everyone (her everyone) is getting either cold or flu and the weather is doldrum-inducing and (2) I have this occasional tendancy to overanalyze and worry about how horrible things are and (3) I cannot do anything about this right now. So I am going to make sure I get a decent night's sleep on it (I am side-eyeing you, cats), and will touch base with her tomorrow.
Also I will possibly go outside tomorrow. I have been avoiding the outside because Weather. (Although it's meant to go up above freezing Tuesday and only get back down to 0°C on Friday! *winter cheers*)
...I have just realized, thanks to LJ's helpful timestamp, that I have been picking at this post for half an hour, and that is not getting me any closer to a good night's sleep. I have been trying to get something I am pleased with done each day, and mostly I've been succeeding. Today, I am thinking that will be "going to bed when I start to get tired."[1]
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[1] It's been okay these first six days, but I am fully prepared to accept that there may be days in the future that are low enough that I end up putting "got dressed" on the list. Getting enough sleep seems a lot more helpful.
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
I spoke to mom today, and she sounded a bit down. So I called her back and she sounded a little better, and then I called her again just a little while ago, and she sounded better but I keep hearing a dip at the end of the conversation and worrying she wants to cry.
I am telling myself that (1) she is allowed to have off days too, especially when everyone (her everyone) is getting either cold or flu and the weather is doldrum-inducing and (2) I have this occasional tendancy to overanalyze and worry about how horrible things are and (3) I cannot do anything about this right now. So I am going to make sure I get a decent night's sleep on it (I am side-eyeing you, cats), and will touch base with her tomorrow.
Also I will possibly go outside tomorrow. I have been avoiding the outside because Weather. (Although it's meant to go up above freezing Tuesday and only get back down to 0°C on Friday! *winter cheers*)
...I have just realized, thanks to LJ's helpful timestamp, that I have been picking at this post for half an hour, and that is not getting me any closer to a good night's sleep. I have been trying to get something I am pleased with done each day, and mostly I've been succeeding. Today, I am thinking that will be "going to bed when I start to get tired."[1]
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[1] It's been okay these first six days, but I am fully prepared to accept that there may be days in the future that are low enough that I end up putting "got dressed" on the list. Getting enough sleep seems a lot more helpful.
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
It feels a little like I've been wading through molasses. There are things I would like to have done that I am not ready to do, and other ones that I got distracted from and did not get done.
On the other hand, I did get the screens for the living room windows washed. And sorted out the natural gas leak from the meter without freaking out, even if I got flaily after it was all sorted out. (Flaily enough that it is worth making note of for later.) And I updated someone's website for them. Finished Black Wings, although I didn't write a review for it yet (I'm practicing). Got up at a reasonable hour. Dressed and left the house. Took out the garbage.
(It's an "accentuate the positive" kind of day; or at least I am making it be one because I am trying to avoid the doldrums.)
(In relation to this: I will note that a Google image search on kittens noses flowers is occasionally a helpful stopgap. Some of them are so cute.)
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
On the other hand, I did get the screens for the living room windows washed. And sorted out the natural gas leak from the meter without freaking out, even if I got flaily after it was all sorted out. (Flaily enough that it is worth making note of for later.) And I updated someone's website for them. Finished Black Wings, although I didn't write a review for it yet (I'm practicing). Got up at a reasonable hour. Dressed and left the house. Took out the garbage.
(It's an "accentuate the positive" kind of day; or at least I am making it be one because I am trying to avoid the doldrums.)
(In relation to this: I will note that a Google image search on kittens noses flowers is occasionally a helpful stopgap. Some of them are so cute.)
(This post has been crossposted from DreamWidth)
